Thursday, July 8, 2010

My head's at it again...or is it my heart?

"Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you." ~Nathaniel Hawthorne


"The modern fairy tale ending is the reverse of the traditional one: A woman does not wait for Prince Charming to bring her happiness; she lives happily ever after only by refusing to wait for him..."  ~ Susan Faludi  


I think sometimes I try too hard, look too hard, and the world's opinion has shaped mine a little too much.  I need to sit quietly for awhile.  It is my mission to breathe deep and enjoy each little moment as they pass by.  I do a fairly good job doing so, but sometimes I worry a lot about tomorrow.  Most times I dissect myself trying to figure out what's wrong with me...like it's all my fault.  Sometimes I back away from a risk because it seems when I take a risk with someone or something, I'm forever getting shafted.  I've just always found it difficult to let someone in, be a part of each other's lives-even if for just a short while, and just watch them be able to easily walk away. I am not programmed that way and don't understand how people can so easily give up on others. 


But-I have a great family, wonderful friends, a fulfilling career, and I am in need of nothing.  I'm a fairly content, laid back, happy person-and I love living life-so why do I allow myself to worry about what's missing?  

4 comments:

  1. I think we're all just a bit guilty of trying to dissect ourselves or others or some happening in life. It's normal. Don't be too hard on you!! What you have....is most important...NOT what's missing.

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    Have a great weekend.

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  2. i do the same at times...there are thing i would like and they blind me to the blessings i have at times...sometimes i need a good head knock to remind me...life tends to provide it...smiles.

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  3. Human nature. Sometimes I wish I could be more like my dog - he is so in the moment, has a very short memory and loves unconditionally. Truly an amazing gift.

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