Sunday, September 26, 2010

Ode to the toothbrush (160)

If you think you've got it bad
think about the toothbrush 
and the jobs it has had
cleaning our teeth 
and toilet stains too
I think I'd rather live 
as a shoe.

**this is a post for Sunday 160 hosted by Monkey Man.  It's fun...try it sometime :)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

There Once was a Girl with a Curl....

     My sister, Cindy, was always a bad child and was born with super human strength.  My grandpa always tells the story of how she would walk around at the age of two and three pushing furniture out of her way with her bare hands.  Maybe she had a chemical imbalance or she was just born thinking the world owed her.  Even today, in her adult form, she acts like the world is in debt to her at times.  My sister started smoking cigarettes at two, yes two, years old.  It started out that she would raid the ash trays, pick up half-lit cigarettes, and imitate our parents.  She must have imitated rather well, for she became addicted and the cravings would throw her into a rage.  The doctors told my mom to let her smoke one cigarette a day if it would calm her down.  I bet you wouldn't hear them saying that to parents today.  But everyday, in the afternoon, my sister would be given her daily smoke.

     I was three, so it's not easy for me to say if the cigarette therapy was effective.  I do remember that she continued to bring mischief and chaos into the house.  One particular afternoon, we were playing in the dining room.  A bar and two bars stools also occupied space there at the time.  My mother was about 10 or 15 feet away in the living room.  Cindy yelled in and asked my mom for some cookies, and my mom told her not until after dinner.  Well, you never told Cindy no and not expect a fight.  She called out to my mom, "You're not my boss!  I can have whatever I want!"  My dad was always used as a weapon for Mom, and she threatened my sister with him at this time.  "Wait until your father gets home!"   I guess my mom had no reason to fear a little three year old, but she was not expecting to have to dodge a bar stool.  My sister had picked it up with her super-human strength and flung it at my mom when her back was turned.  I remember yelling out a warning, and my mom successfully dodged the bullet.

I don't remember what happened to my sister that night, but I'm sure she got the paddle.  I never could get her to realize if she just bent over and let it happen, that she'd only get one whack.  No, she had to kick, scream, and squirm.  She made it harder on herself, but she always went out with a fight.

I remember the day she took my grandma's bright red lipstick and colored all over her white bedroom furniture.  There was the day that she stabbed me in the back with a pencil.  More spankings...I don't think there were many days she didn't get a spanking.  And the episode where she took pen and wrote my name all over our white walls.  I was punished by being made to scrub the walls with soap and a sponge.  I 'm not sure why my parents didn't believe I was telling the truth when I said I didn't do it.  My sister finally fessed up about an hour later after the guilt wore her down.  She did love me, and I guess she had a conscience after all.

There was one afternoon that her temper tantrums almost cost her her life.  She had been quiet for a little while and when my mom finally found her hidden in my grandma's bedroom, she sat on the floor with an empty perfume bottle in her overly sweet smelling hands.  She was slick from head to toe and smelled like a "speak easy," my mom recalled.  My mom gave her a spanking and set her on the couch for time out.  This did not bode well for her temper.  She sulked and festered, even when my aunt came in and offered to take us with her for a walk.  Cindy huffily told us that she wasn't going, so my aunt and I started out the door and across the street.  It was a four lane city road right outside our house, and as we got about half way across, we heard my mom scream my aunt's name.  My sister had run out of the house screaming right into the middle of the street in the path of an oncoming 16-wheeler.  It blew its horn at the same time that my aunt turned around, letting go of my hand, and rushed to grab and throw my sister out of the truck's deadly path.  It happened within a few brief seconds, the truck sped by, the three of us all safe.

My sister received quite a spanking that day, and then shortly after a doctor's appointment for a mental health evaluation.  My mom was becoming terrified of what she was capable of doing even at four years of age.  The docs didn't do much, they simply told my parents she needed lots of supervision and discipline.  They said she would outgrow her tantrums and nasty fits.  And she did, for the most part.  She continues to smoke, she will always have a cranky attitude, she will always argue with anyone who varies from the way she sees life, but she did turn into a mom, a wife, and a person that loves to lend a hand to someone in need.  A sociopath she did not become, but she sure was a bad child.

** I posted this for Magpie tales 33 when the photo brought back memories of my sister and her mischief as a child.  Visit Magpie Tales hosted by Willow to read some great stories and poems, or post your own!


Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Madness of Poe

"Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream"
asked Edgar Allan Poe.

How clever and rational was Poe
heard a raven speak it would seem.
could it merely have been his dream?

did death and horror occupy this dream?
Maybe he was tormented, this Poe
or somewhat mad it would seem.

It would seem the dream to be a muse for Poe.

**this is a post for One Shot Wednesday, a great place for poets.  Visit the link to submit a poem or to simply read some fantastic poems by some pretty terrific writers.  This week, I was checking out some poetry forms and decided to try a form called Tritina ( I think it may also be known as a Sonnetina).  It was challenging...still not sure about the last line...but it was fun to try.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

National Neonatal Nurses' Day

time is not a promise

Her golden-hued curls 
always caught the 
just right and her
white chicklet smile
could stop your heart 
when she aimed it 
at you,
eyes of emerald 
that sparkled when a 
moment of laughter 
over came her
which was quite often.
As a child of 
with a mind full 
of curiosity
she was the star 
of her world,  
as she was the star
of her parent's world.
But it took only 
a moment
for the star's twinkle 
to fade 
and for a world 
to be
permanently altered
without warning
or reason,
when disease attacks
ravaging innocence
rendering parents 
to their knees
because they
assumed many
more days and 
a bright future
But without apology,
suffering revealed 
it's deceitful face
and with it
brought death- 
A loss unexplainable
and sudden.
How will they deal
with such pain?
And the rest of us-
we're left heavy-hearted
but grateful 
for every minute
we have left 
with our loved ones.

**this is a poem for Oneshot Wednesday and imperfect prose.  The pediatric ICU was a sad place today as a healthy five year old was ravaged by an unknown infection this week that took her life unexpectedly.   My heart's been heavy and my thoughts have been with this family all day today.   

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Peanuts 160

Was Lucy's middle name fur?
That's what I named my cat
who reminds me of her. 
she tortures her friends 
not making amends
calling them blockheads 
in the end.
Peanuts - September 12, 2010

**this is a Sunday 160 hosted by Monkey Man.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Hobbies of an apple

A hypocrite of sorts,
you play both sides.
Your outter beauty
will lure anyone in.
and you know it
in the vain way you
hang around.
The delicious scent
you drown yourself in
and your promise
of fulfillment
is too much temptation
for any hungry soul.
You say you will
keep the doctor away
but you've spent
your time
poisoning princesses
and tempting Eve
into sin against
her own father.
you remind me
of someone I know.

This was posted for Magpie Tales 30.  Take a peek at the link to read more terrific writing and join in the fun :)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The Puppet Master

you keep on speaking the words
empty words like evaporated
water with no meaning elicit
feelings of false hope
and short-lived joy.
why continue to
breath such lies
why continue
to believe
such lies?
In the
it takes
for you
to reel me
back in, you
are already
to run
a puppet
on a string
I continue
to follow your
lead, waiting in
anticipation for your
next move, hoping soon
for you to cut loose the thread
that binds me mercilessly to you.

**this is a poem for One Shot Wednesday- a great place for poets and writers to meet.