I want to find that exciting, heart thumping, over the fence feeling again. -I think that may have been a great line in a movie. I had that once,I liked it a lot, and I won't settle for anything less. I'm thinking right now I just need to date around a bit, though, and spend a few months working on me. I think I need to spend some time just browsing some potentials... and hopefully, my heart will do a flip during the process, hopefully it will heal completely, and hopefully I will find fun, exciting love once again.
I emailed him last week, just a "hi, how are you?" and got no response. I don't know that I was expecting one, but it still hurt. He hasn't sent me any texts this weekend, either. I'm fading from his life, as he wants it. It's sad when I think of my future without him in it. Maybe I just can't see the future that God has intended....and maybe it's better than I can imagine. I still have hope; at least he hasn't taken that from me.